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[Jul. 9th, 2009|07:11 pm] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAREEN!!!
We bought her a teddy bear that has magnets on the hands to the eyes. Damn cute. And the bear so soft and nice to hug! I LIKE!! hehe hope u like it but i know u like it!!
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Oh MI GOSH. Its already friday. (well almost.)
* * * * * * * * cepatnye.
*** Just a quick one.
 Look at THOSE. Not a small kid anymore aye. saw this at hotmail add. haiya... why mesti always like this. show this show that. but jealous lah hor. hah. WAAA SO Gorgeous. And the picture damn nice seh. Lighting all that. and she look like a doll!
oh i want the umbrella~ |
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[Jul. 8th, 2009|08:49 pm] |
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Monday was funny. !st it started out in DSS brainstorming like crazy, but then we didnt really got to a solid point. We keep going back and forth of the same concepts trying to make sense of it all but in the end it got complicated and we were back in square 1. It is stressful but funny. Anything with these girls always seems funny.. and it really makes poly manageable. I actually have a bad temper but so far these funny girls cant make my temper go UP! haha.. To think about it, mcm no bad mood ah at school... =)
Then in class Ima wanted to ask the teacher to help her insert a tool bar that has not been there since forever. We were seated at the front, so wanted to just pass the laptop to her lah. Then shareen wanted to help pass to teacher cause she sit nearer to her.. Then ah i say careful the plug(cause ima took out the batt) then ahhhhhhhh REGINA hand suddenly come in from nowhere and *tup* she close the power switch. Macam like want help lah but skali switch the laptop off. Waaaa me and Ima like so shock cause we jaga2 the power skali just like that, it off. hahahahahaha. waaa funny sia. Then she still like blur still ask, "eh why ah? why like that?" LOL she so funny..
And then after break proceed to my "theory".... Well my own personal theories. I seems to have alot dont i? Hahaha.. K we were on the 9th level and the veiw was so nice cause no builing that are near all many many many trees. And i went to say something like this...
"I think thats why Ngee Ann dont have H1N1 and dont need to close school. U see so secluded from public.... "
hahahaha then Ima look at me then say "waaa ur theory... anyhow.... hahahhaa..."
but i dont mean so serious lah, but still confident also when i say that. hahha. I dont know how many theory i come up with.
And after that was business law tutorial........ We were presenting out aswers lah... so while other groups are presenting i make our group answer page very nice2. The font big2, aligned, then test the full view so people can read easily mah. I was so ready to present it lah..
Soi let it standby first.
Then while the group was presenting, the tutor ask this question about law lah.. Vicarious liability
"why must the employer be liable for the actions of the employee? What is the philosophy behind it? " Immediate i answer quietly to Ima but then previous kan da me and my theory so mcm like again one of my theory lah kan.
I say 'alah go more money mah. U want sue people no money for what."
Student answer this and that lah, so chim also about the previous stuff we learn about. But not the answer he lloking for. And again he ask the question lah, and again i say the same thing to Ima but i say hmm philosophy ke tu? Then she told me to say out to him since im like so sure of it. haha
Then i turn around (he is seated at the back of the class) and he look at me wanting me to answer. But i ask this 1st
" is the answer in the book?"
Then he say "no no no its not in the book" (he is ang moh btw) Waa i lagi confident lah kan.
Then i say... "Is it because the employer has more money???"
Then he immediately give me tumbs up like expressive punya. And the whole class laugh. And then they like, what thats the answer? And they went "waaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuuu"
LOL LOL LOL. See dont need to think so far one. And the tutor say, "dont forget to remind me to give u and A."
HEH HEH HEH. ( i know lah that one not real but still...heh heh heh)
THEN MY GROUP TURN TO PRESENT. So use my laptop. Regina and i will be presenting lah.. then when she about to take my laptop i say careful ah the plug i dont hav- *tup* SHE OFF THE POWER. AGAIN. waaaaaaaaaaaaa. then i like pinch and tickle her kinda thing. I sad sehhhh cause i make it soooo nice already the answer............ hahahahhah. it would take some time to one right so in the end use Ima's where didnt edit it, like the font like not same, and not align. hahha. Dont like seyyy.
CRAZY AND STUPIDLY FUNNY DAY.
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[Jul. 7th, 2009|08:16 pm] |
ARGH FUCK LAAAA!!!! How many times do i have to the bloody freaking stupid shit of DSS. BLOODY ASS CORRUPTED FILE!! I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCKING REASON FOR THIS.
ITS BLOODY FREAKING TIME CONSUMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM STRESS OUT ENOUGH AND I BLOODY DONT NEED THIS!!!!! |
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[Jul. 6th, 2009|07:23 pm] |
Boyfriend is so sweet!!!!
U know yesterday i was feeling so sad about how my mom come in with my brother common test results right.. hoping to motivate me..then i call him lah, cry cry all that... so sad... and he pujuk me... =)
Then about few hours later, i want something delicious to kinda make me feel better. And suddeny bubble tea come to mind!
ohh that sweet snow ice blend.
Hehe so i msg boyfriend that I was craving for bubble tea at compass point.
And he replied, " If today dont rain, i meet u then we go buy k... "(come to my house by motor mah)
Skaliiiii rain. Heavy pulak tu. Sad lah kan i. Then i say,
" Its ok, next time we can buy... (secretly hopes still can go) "
Hhehehhee.
Then like around 9.30pm he ask all this question about what is the flavour, what time the close shop, and how long will i be doing my school and what time will i be calling him later at night. Then i say i am about to finish soon and will call him like usual which is around 10.30pm.
Then like around 10.15 pm he msg me...
" Ok... but why not u come down now and meet me. hehe.. "
WAAAA I SHOCK LAH KAN. Cause when he sent msg about what time call him, its already around 9.50pm like the plan da tak jadi kan kan kan...
hahahha. I was doing my school work and i quickly change into more presentable clothing and quickly meet him..
And there he was... still on his bike, moving it under the block. Looking as cute as ever with his helmet still on. (i like lor when he wear his helmet!)
hehehheehe. So happy seh!! Da hug2... then sit down and he gave me the buble tea, waaaa the moment i sip it mcm HEAVEN! hahha. Mcm HEAVEN cause the weather is so cool.~ at night mah, just rain also.. then he is like so hugable and plus that delicious bubble tea.
AaaaaAa~~
I SO HAPPY U KNOW!!
Thanks baby~
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[Jul. 5th, 2009|05:42 pm] |
I cant stand spending so much time at the computer. click here click there for lecture notes. downloading this and that. deleted this and that to make space. not able to transfer file. not enough space for file. file not supported and converting file.
I hate all this bullshit. I dont feel belong i feel lost.
I feel like quiting poly and work in a carpenter shop. I swear that will be heaven. |
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[Jul. 5th, 2009|04:15 pm] |
Whenever i pass that DNT room in school i feel like im passing by a lost love or something. The longing to be in there making, creating stuff out of nothing. Feeling that my hands are magic. Its the only reality that = to my dreamland. I really feel at ease when i am crafting work.
Do i still have the touch?? I wonder....
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Cant believe its sunday today. Its already half the day and i still got more to do. Well plan to do at least. I dont know what i do during the weekdays. It seems that i get nothing done. I dont revise, i dont do homework, but i dont watch tv all day. I just dont remember what i did. This troubles me.
MAEC common test 2 is on the 21 july and damn, i find that topic complicating. Its pretty direct actually but when i face all this numbers and formula, i get whoozy(dont know if that is even a word but u get my point right.) U know, those modules that are less important and use lesser of the brain but requires more time than the other dont they!! Its pretty annoying and just isnt fair. I spend more time doing DSS and LMS and its freaking pointless. grr.
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Im pretty much the dumbest among my siblings aka my brothers. They score well, do great in their studies. But i dont feel treaten by them. I dont feel the need to do better than them. I dont bother competing against my own family members especially my own brothers that i adore so much. However, i dont know why i feel this way when mom suddenly comes in saying that she expects/hopes that i score as well as my younger brother. She comes in my room with his common test results and im not surprised that he score all A+. He is smart since baby anyway. Understanding stuff with just a snap. She says that hopes it motivates me. That is so lame. I dont even wish to prove to anything to my family. I really dont feel the need. really. All i want is to feel satisfied on my account. On my abilities and my own personal achievements. I mention this before that whatever i do, it is not to make my parents proud of me. I know what i need to do. Selfish u might say? Saying im ridiculous not to try to make my parents proud of me. What kind of daughter i am to not make the parents proud?? Well i am selfish that way. And i dont know why i burst into tears when she said. Well i only cried after she leaves my room. I close the door and cried. I guess despite me not wanting to prove anything to my parents, the feeling of always not being enough hurts. They dont say that but actions can show that. My mom always tell me about my brothers, this and that but did she say anything about me??? How good i am at doing things? Well maybe to her im not that good at anything. Just not bad. I am plain u know. Not good enough to talk about and dont bad to even complain about. Im just...there.
Heck i dont even know what im saying lah. Its just this overwhelming feeling.
Here i am struggling in poly, trying my best, stressing about my school work, feeling down about how my brain cant focus and there my mom strut in my room and simply show my brother results full of A+ expecting me to do that well.
U KNOW HOW THAT FEELS???!!!! ITS LIKE A HEAVY BIG BOULDER OR TRUCK JUST FELL ONTO ME. LIKE NOW I HAVE THIS EVEN MORE LOAD TO CARRY. ALL THE BULLSHIT THAT IS IN MY MIND, JUST TRYING TO SURVIVE, BARELY BY THE WAY. DELUDING MYELF, CARRYING MY MIND INTO SELF DENIAL STATE JUST SO I CAN SURVIVE. AND THERE COMES A BIG TRUCK OF SAND THAT POURS ON ME WITHOUT WARNING. I CANT BREATHE, I FEEL LIKE DYING AND GIVING UP.
Yeah so much for motivation mom.
Im in pain physically and mentally. I feel like my body is so weak. |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2009|07:19 pm] |
Im officially depressed. y u must ask? Its my bloody damn teeth or rather my MOUTH. The ulcers are 'killing' me. despite being hungry like hell, i still dont feel like eating because of the bloody ulcers i am having.Ya note the plural. UlcerS! While one is healing, another is growing. Its a continuos cycle! argh!!!! I often accidently bite the inside of my cheeks while im eating. Its damn painful laah! Sometimes even double biting the ulcer itself. waa piang like want faint like that. I think its my teeth. They are not perfect and like abit protruding like that and very sharp! So a lil bite, damn ulcer grow.
u know.... I just reached home, after being in school from 8am. Note that .8AM!!! OMGOSH im SOO freaking tired. i am having headache, my back is aching and i am fucking hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND ITS A BLOODYYYY FRIDAAAY!!
My stomach is so empty that all its giving out is farts. Yaa too much wind. I even farted in the MRT but i dont know if it can be heard cause i got my mp3 on. So didnt had any change of expression when my fart came out. Haha! EH! i tried to control it okay but cant lah.
I think mp3 helps u too be in denial. Its like u are in ur own little world/bubble listening to whatever songs. Like dont really care what is around you... Sometimes can walk more confident cause got background song... hahahha. i dont know bout u guys lah but to me at least. So much so that i in denial of my 'fart-tation'. LOL.
Ok before i get any more distracted by stupid random complains, observation and etc, i better get out of here. I got work to do man. Editing of video!!!!!!
U know i wish i can be a script writer or something. My brain got so many ideas. and therefore boyfriend say i live in fairyland. Often dreaming je and always too emo. Alah what to do. U cant take a person imagination and creativity away righttttt. hehe =)
ok chao lah!! *stomach grumble* |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2009|07:31 pm] |
I spend $10 for a necklace sold in school. There is a mini flee market of somesort. And i am in the mood to buy stuff!! Then there is this leather belt, OMG SO NICE!!!!!! I wanted to buy but then no cash. Lazy lah to draw money, The sad thing is that the flee market only last today. Like rubbish right. But all the bloody stuff there then in few hours got to pack it already. Chey. And who the hell brings so much money anyway.
And and the $10 is money saved from my daily allowance cause i dont eat at school, or i just spend like arnd $2 only so got to save few dollars lah. My wallet usually got more than $5 and when my daily allowance keep building up in my wallet, i very happy lah kan. But then one day, i spend on something like this necklace today then everything gone. I actually intend to keep the money in my piggy bank lah but then u tend to spend money in ur wallet right. haiya. I been wanting to save money eversince i started school, and i know i can save alot cause i usually come home hungry nak mampos cause i dont eat at school. But then my piggy bank for notes empty leh. Like really what did i spend on sehhhhhhhhh.............. grrr. I think i just have to change everything to coins so i save more. I often break my notes so i can have more dollar coin. Cause i save $1. I already got more than $50 worth of dollar coin already.
I feel like just spending most of money in my bank account. But then i put in so much hard work ler to save. Eversince i was in primary school. But then i dont think im happy now, having such kental clothes. I mean like my fashion sense isnt bad, its just that i dont have the money to buy em. all the clothes i have like already 5 years. So unhappy. And i think im in denial keep thinking that when im older, i will have a job and work and then can buy pretty clothes. But then when im older kan, and if i want to wear somethings that i wish i want to wear now, i pobably cant wear cause its lame and stupid for someone my age(in the future) to wear such stuff. Am i right?????? So this actually make me consider of just spending money so i will be happy now. Happy being 20. Happy being fashionable, looking good at 20. Like like sunhat!!! i dont want be old and wear a damn sunhat can!!!!! and and colour leggings, heavy necklace, charm bracelets and boots. OMG BOOTS! I BEEN WANTING THEM SINCE FOREVERRR!
What ya think?????? Go shopping spree????? im depressed. yes i need material stuff to make me happy. kk, happier lah.
Waa so long post ah say about money. aiyah been months since i update my bankbook.
Oh man...im so lazy and not in the mood and sick and daydreaming to revise anything.
I think i want spend $200. Hoowwww??? List the essentials that i want and plan my budget. Howwww?????? Im really stress seyyyyyyyy. Why work so hard look and look like crap. Want to go out with bf also stress. Baju sucks. I want to go out and feel weeeeee~ And my clothes dont fit we well already. So big. I da kurus-er.
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[Jul. 1st, 2009|08:33 pm] |
I guess today weather is hot aye? And sooooo OMG!!! the mrt stinks seyyyy. I took green line to tampines and halfway through the journey smelly sweaty people beside me. I cannot tahan seh. Got this guy stand beside me wahhhh so masam. Then he stand nearer to me when people want to get off. But then, more people come in so he kinda stayed near to me. I got a lil dizzy like that smell him. Then two stops later when people alighted, i quickly move to the back. fuh. Then like 5 stops later, there is an empty seat lah. So i sit. Then next stop, this apek sit beside me, wahhh he also masam. mek.
Ok lah, i know im not like smell nice all the time what. Everybody got like body odour or something. Its whether u cover it well or not. But some people really dony smell u know...! anywayyyyy what im trying to say, WHY MUST I TOLERATE THE SMELL KAN. I dont even like when i smell of sweat. So why the hell should i be fine with other people stinky body. In the train somemore! close approximity lagi. haiyo.
How like this????
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So i finally got all my common test results! And I PASSED ALL OF THEM. But well.... not with flying colours. eh EXCEPT for DSS. Its excel formula stuff and i got 98/100. PENG! U know its funny laaa~ cause........
My tutorial class got about 60 students and the tutor said that 3 people score 99/100. and one is my friend that i usually hang out with in school. =D power ah she. very smart. Then then, the next top people are 5 students who score 98/100. So she started to call out one by one, and the students are sitting at the back. As for me i sit in the 1st row. So i look at the back lah kan. Then skali the last person is 'Nadia'. Waaaa i give shocked face lah. (Which boyfriend say my belo face.alah i got many belo face lah infact. -_-) hahahha. SOO like who would have known kaannn. She say the average score is 87 around there lah.. So with alot of people scoring above 80 u need to get above 90 or 95 eh to get A. AND weeee~ i got A! (one only)
and that is all that i can bask in glory in. the other tests......... heh. So just let me be happy for this lah hor.
If u know me, pass is never enough. NEVERRRRRRR. I want to bask in the glory of succes.
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[Jun. 30th, 2009|10:34 pm] |
I got such a throbbing headache since i 12.30pm. Oh man.. I think its because of im having period now. Haiya mcm2 lah ini menses.
anyways... have u listen to the song for the AYG? Eeeyerrrr so the- the- eeeyerrr. Its like dulu2 punya lagu and then in the middle of the song there is a part that they try to make it 'hip and cool.' really doesnt fit!!!!! So lame!!! Then after that, continue to sound 'opera-like.' LIke just a bunch of words and put some tunes into it. eeee. Sounds so lame. Typical of those national day songs.
http://www.ayg2009.sg/page/TheGames/LogoandMascot/0,,12804~1642516,00.html
at the lyrics there is a link to listen to the song.
like how many times have we heard this kind of lyrics?? and the song seems to be like be going on forever and it keeps repeating the same verses. -_- |
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[Jun. 29th, 2009|11:41 pm] |
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Here i am blogging at 11.45pm because i just woke up at 11PM!!! I reached home, eat and bathe and felt super tired and slept. Slept sooo soundly that i woke up at 11pm. And nooowwww i am super fresh! Feel even better than the supposely wake-up-for-new-day kinda feeling u know. Shitz. -____- Like im starting a new day already but im still in MONDAY! how how how how?? can i get sleepy back? maybe i shall read my lecture notes and get prepapre for the week lesson eh. *shock face* Waa. lol.
Anywayssss, I PASS MY BLOODY DAMN BUSINESS LAW PAPER!!!! My whole class did and isnt that awwwwwwsomeee! My class power! Shock ahhh. Alhamdulilah. (start thinking about other papers, *shivers*) Well i didnt score well laa because of the damn MCQs. Walau i score so badly for it seh. So sad. Imagine lah 4 marks for 1 mcq. if i get another question wrong for mcq i will fail lah! ishk! BUUUTTTT amazingly i score gooooodddd for my section C! THE ONE THAT I AM MOST AFRAID OF AND SO SCEPTICAL OF. haha so weird. And so..... the wait fot the other 2 papers will be killing me. POA and MAEC. eek!
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[Jun. 28th, 2009|10:03 pm] |
Just what is real? My dream just feels as real as now. I feel dead. Like everything is just like a dream. Just like how a good dream leave a wonderful feeling in ur heart even when u are awake.
Its like a mirage. |
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[Jun. 26th, 2009|10:52 pm] |
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Waaa today so boring! I really have nothing to do. I probably should clean up my room abit but leceh ah with Tasha around. I watched TV until i get so bored with all the programs. I dont like watching tv nor enjoy watching tv as much as i used to. Please enlighten me!!!
So i just pop in a movie which was House Bunny that i already watch. Didnt really sit and watch. I just left it running and do some other random stuff that i cant remember now what i did. After that, Tasha wanted me to watch this DVD. And it is Beyonce Concert Live. Well i never watch it before so ya want to see what it is about. And wow Beyonce POWER! Like so has such a high level of energy, dancing and singing with those heels. Walauuuu. Just watching her makes me feel tired. And tasha is so noisy. haha. She got sooo many comments that sometimes i dont expect a 5 year old to say lah. She say sexy this lah sexy that lah. Why wear like that lah. haha.
And about 2hrs earlier, i got soooo bored i just decide to to this to Tasha. hehehhe. cant believe she just sit down and let me do that.  she didnt say a single word the whole time i did that to her whole head. haha. she even standby to give me the rubberbands. cool or what. Taking care of her is so easy. She can do everything herself. Dont need to dress or undress her. Eat herself. Switch on or off tv herself, even changing to her fav channel. Or even setting up her sleeping area. Comb her own long long hair.
haha. Just tell her what to do. mehehehe. And sometime she even clean my room. Like that time i went out without making my bed and when i got home i saw my blanket nicely place on my bed. And when we are about to sleep, she already set up the blankets and pillows on the floor for her to sleep, she say, "u see ur bed like very nice like that right? i put ur blanket u know." I never bully her okay. She is just very smart and independent.
and she only do all these nice stuff at my house only. But at her home, she will mess everything up and perangai. haha! Oh ya on wed we went swimming with my younger brother. hehe. She was so happy lah splashing2 at our faces, play2 at the playground ares then suddenly don know why she got her mood swing. Dont want to talk all that. Avoid us also. So we slowly tired to pujuk her then da ok, waa happy giler balik. -_-. waa if she bad mood fuaaaaaaaaa. hahaha.
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[Jun. 25th, 2009|08:45 pm] |
Went to vivo today for filming. Its for our LMS project. Well being there make me sad lor cause i see all the sales and clothes but then i am not buying anything. Argh.
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[Jun. 24th, 2009|08:45 pm] |
Today is the best!! Picnic in the morning and movie in the afternoon with bf. Awesome or what. Weather is pretty great cause is not hot! Picnic was such a breeze. Ya literally. Non stop wind. Its so nice~
I love picnic and when its not hot is the BOM. Wee~ Food that we brought are just tuna sandwitches, hotdogs and drinks. Not bad for only two people. hehe. We took tons of photos and with such beautiful scenery, it just encourage us more. but i wont upload them here to show cause its with BF and it probably take forever cause of his lagging computer. hehehhee.
AND WAAA TRANSFORMERS is AWWWW-SOMEE!! haaa~ The movie that i been waiting for. *wags eyebrows* Graphics are so good. and the transform part waa so gerek like that. And megan fox is kinda over rated. hahahhaha. BF probably say 'alah jealous.' Body hot yes, nice eyes yes but mcm not THAT hot when u see her altogether. Her acting sucks too. mehheheh. And i dont know why... but when sam calls BUMBLEBEE!!! BUMBLEBEE!! like the feeling mcm waaa~ cair. Not at Sam but at the whole action. hahaha. Each time. Weird i know. I get turn on by robot rather than the actors. ahahaha. Optimus Prime. *drools*
Eh go watch! and have a picnic too!
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